I'm happy with how things are going, I really am. Although doing an hour of intense cardio everyday has been kicking my ass, it seems to be working. And eating 1200 calories a day is really reasonable for me. I don't feel deprived, I'm losing weight, and I feel like I can actually maintain this amount without losing control. I still get the odd craving but I'm not starving all the time, and haven't been tempted to binge. I feel like I've finally found a happy medium and I hope that it continues to work for me. I also feel like, for the first time, I'm learning to enjoy the foods I love without over indulging or feeling like I've failed. I can eat whole wheat pasta, dark chocolate, and veggie pizza, as long as I stay within 1200 calories. I don't have to beat myself up about it. I don't have to starve or live off vegetables to lose weight. Crazy, right?
Lately I've been feeling super emotional and I'm not sure why. I was almost in tears last night just thinking about having to leave my mom soon. Maybe it's because I don't get to stuff my emotions down with food anymore, nothing to numb all the feelings. But I've also been feeling a lot happier, appreciating the little things a bit more. I'm coming out of my food induced haze and into the world again it seems.
I'm getting really excited to move in with my boyfriend! I've moved a lot in my life (about 14 times) and it sucks, but I'm happy that I'm going to have a home again, one that we build together. I've been going back and forth between the dorms at school, my boyfriends house, and my moms this past year and I really just want to get settled. I'm tired of airports and suitcases. I just want to get our little apartment how we want it and get back into a routine. School, gym, home, sleep, wake up thinner. Repeat.
So now for the new and exciting Question of the Day! I decided that I'm also going to answer the question so that you guys can get to know me a bit better :)
Q: Do you have any pets? If so what type/breed and what what are their names?
A: So as mentioned in my last post, my mom has 2 dogs that I absolutely adore. We got them when I was in high school, and they are both small and so cute. My boyfriend and I are planning to get dogs of our own once we are done school and settled somewhere. I want to get Cavalier King Charles Spaniels, a brother and sister from the same litter. My boyfriend wants to get an English Bulldog haha, so we'll see who wins this one ;)
Cavalier King Charles Spaniel puppy <3
Today's thinspo is all about Babes, Beaches and Bikinis. Next summer that will be us frolicking in the sand in our XS swimsuits looking fantastic, just you wait.
Hey, thanks for the comment! Just read a few of your posts and you could be my twin- the height and weight in 7th grade, the height now, your start weight. And even though I'm doing Weight Watchers, my daily points allowance is roughly 1200 calories like you. Don't give up :)
ReplyDeleteGood job I'm glad you found a balance for losing weight.
ReplyDeleteOh and to answer your question i have a chihuahua named Hailey.
Do pet rocks count? We can't have any pets where we are renting. My sister has a very small Russian Blue cat named Mischa.
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