I'm happy with how things are going, I really am. Although doing an hour of intense cardio everyday has been kicking my ass, it seems to be working. And eating 1200 calories a day is really reasonable for me. I don't feel deprived, I'm losing weight, and I feel like I can actually maintain this amount without losing control. I still get the odd craving but I'm not starving all the time, and haven't been tempted to binge. I feel like I've finally found a happy medium and I hope that it continues to work for me. I also feel like, for the first time, I'm learning to enjoy the foods I love without over indulging or feeling like I've failed. I can eat whole wheat pasta, dark chocolate, and veggie pizza, as long as I stay within 1200 calories. I don't have to beat myself up about it. I don't have to starve or live off vegetables to lose weight. Crazy, right?
Lately I've been feeling super emotional and I'm not sure why. I was almost in tears last night just thinking about having to leave my mom soon. Maybe it's because I don't get to stuff my emotions down with food anymore, nothing to numb all the feelings. But I've also been feeling a lot happier, appreciating the little things a bit more. I'm coming out of my food induced haze and into the world again it seems.
I'm getting really excited to move in with my boyfriend! I've moved a lot in my life (about 14 times) and it sucks, but I'm happy that I'm going to have a home again, one that we build together. I've been going back and forth between the dorms at school, my boyfriends house, and my moms this past year and I really just want to get settled. I'm tired of airports and suitcases. I just want to get our little apartment how we want it and get back into a routine. School, gym, home, sleep, wake up thinner. Repeat.
So now for the new and exciting Question of the Day! I decided that I'm also going to answer the question so that you guys can get to know me a bit better :)
Q: Do you have any pets? If so what type/breed and what what are their names?
A: So as mentioned in my last post, my mom has 2 dogs that I absolutely adore. We got them when I was in high school, and they are both small and so cute. My boyfriend and I are planning to get dogs of our own once we are done school and settled somewhere. I want to get Cavalier King Charles Spaniels, a brother and sister from the same litter. My boyfriend wants to get an English Bulldog haha, so we'll see who wins this one ;)
Cavalier King Charles Spaniel puppy <3
Today's thinspo is all about Babes, Beaches and Bikinis. Next summer that will be us frolicking in the sand in our XS swimsuits looking fantastic, just you wait.