Skinny Love.: August 2012

CW: 155.8 lbs

Well, it's a start. And I haven't been working all that hard lately to be honest. I've been eating pretty good but I'm just getting back to exercising. My plan is to do some form of exercise everyday until I go back home for school, which is in 2 weeks. My ex is picking me up from the airport...he offered, I accepted. Is that weird..? I've never done this whole break up thing and I have mixed feelings about it to begin with. I'm thinking this could be a bad idea. But it's happening and I want to look as good as I possibly can by then. So no junk, no snacking and exercise everyday. I really want to see the 140's before I fly home on September 1st. I still have a long way to go but I think it would give me a good boost of motivation to keep going when I get home to see 149.9 on the scale.

Speaking of going home I have SO much to do when I get there. The ex took the microwave, blender, toaster, pots, and glasses so I have to get all that stuff plus books for school, gym pass, parking pass...it's gonna be an expensive week. But I did get a couple scholarships and have saved all the money I've made this summer. What I really want to do is buy clothes but it seems like a waste of money when I'm this size :( Oh well, it will be a good reason to get the weight off.

The breakup..I don't even know how I feel. What if I never find someone that loves me as unconditionally as he did? What if I never find anything better that what we had? Then at the same time, I know we want different things in life. I know that if I was really happy in our relationship, I wouldn't have had a wandering eye...I just don't like being alone. I've never had to live without him there. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.. Anyway, here's some random inspiration/things I'm obsessed with! Enjoy ;)