Friday, January 14, 2011

Juice Fast: Day 5/6

CW: 164

I made it for about 5 and a half days for the juice fast. Today (day 6) I had to eat dinner with my boyfriend because he was getting really suspicious. So we went to Tim Horton's and I got a chicken sandwich and, unfortunately, a donut. But afterward we went to the gym and I did an hour of intense cardio and burned 620 calories. I weighed myself when I got back and I was happy to see 164 on the scale, the weight I was before Christmas came around. But I'm not going to cross off my goal weight 1 until I've kept my weight below 165 for a couple of days. I really need to lose this weight. I just want to see the 130's again before Hawaii so that I can actually have fun instead of dreading being in a bathing suit everyday. I keep telling myself to think about how great I'll feel, how much fun I'll have, and how fantastic I will look.

I looked up my BMI and right now I'm in the "overweight" category. That's really depressing. I won't be in the "normal" weight range until I get to 140, 24 pounds to go. I remember being underweight...when people told me how great I looked and asked me how I did it. But I'm really trying not to think about how far I have to go, and instead take every pound as a small victory. I already feel and look better, and I every pound I lose will continue that progress. I can see my collarbones a little already, and my stomach has gotten a bit flatter. I don't feel safe at this weight though. I feel like I could gain those 9 lbs back in a few days. I'll be really happy to see the 150's, then I'll feel a little more secure with my weight loss journey.

I was surprised at how well I did on the fast, I could have kept going if my boyfriend wasn't with me everyday. I definitely could have made it to 7 if not 10 days. I like fasting. It makes things simple. Controlling my eating is harder to me than not eating at all. But going to the gym works too. As long as I've burned most of what I've eaten, I'm satisfied. And I really do like working out, especially cardio. And my boyfriend is really into going to the gym now too, so we will be able to motivate each other when one of us isn't feeling up to it. I'm so glad I'm back on track because I get pretty depressed when I'm eating crap and not exercising. Junk food only makes me happy for the moment it's on my tongue, then I'm just depressed and hopeless.

Today's pics are of Whitney Port, reality TV star and up and coming clothing designer. She has the skinniest legs!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Juice Fast: Day 3/4

CW: 166.5 

It's the night of day 4 and I've made it on only juice and water. It's definitely been tough, but I'm doing it and loving the results. I think I was around 172 or 173 when I started the fast. I don't know if I'll be able to do 7 days, my boyfriend is getting suspicious. But tomorrow he has class all day so I will be able to fast until at least Friday night. That will be around 5 and a half days. Not bad. Sorry, no pictures tonight. So tired. Stay strong girls.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Juice Fast: Day 2

So it's the evening of day 2 of my fast and so far so good. It hasn't been super hard so far (knock on wood) and I've managed to get a bunch of stuff done over the past couple days. I cleaned my room and have everything just how I like it which is nice. I'm kind of a perfectionist. It applies to pretty much every part of my life, including having things clean and organized. I can't stand things being messy, it drives me nuts. Oh and I got some new makeup and nail polish :) I love anything girly, and it will keep me distracted from eating for a while. I have my nails sparkly pink right now, love them.

I've been having some problems with my boyfriend. I thought I'd ask you guys if I'm being completely irrational and overreacting or if i have a right to be upset. The first thing that happened was on Saturday night. We were hanging out, he was drinking, I wasn't really and the rest of our friends went to a house party. We decided to just chill and stay in, play some drinking games. So one of them had a truth or dare component and he chose truth, and I asked him what made him start liking me. He asked me out every year since grade 7 until I said yes in grade 10 and we've been dating ever since. And he had been drinking but at the time he said he wasn't drunk. He said that he didn't know why he started liking me, it was a long time ago, he just did. After nagging him for like 5 minutes for an answer he said because he figured he had a chance at getting me. He didn't say because I was smart or fun or pretty...because he thought he had a chance with me. So I was super hurt over it and we didn't talk for a coupe days, but I forgave him because I really can't imagine my life without him. 

Then the next thing that happened was I found something on his phone that shouldn't have been there. And I didn't sneak to look at his phone, just so you know, he was there and I was just playing around on his apps and stuff. I looked in his app store and he had searched for sex apps, and had one open that was like, porn. And he has lied about watching porn in the past which really hurt me, so this is a sensitive subject. He, of course, had some bullshit excuse. If he was honest about it, I might not even mind, but the fact that he lies about it means he has something to hide. I just don't know how much more I should take. I love him, I really do. But I can't just let him keep lying to me and hurting me, I look like an idiot. And he'll just keep doing it because I always go back to him. I don't know. 

On a happier note, I've been look at cute bathing suits online, potentially for Hawaii. They're Victoria's Secret and Betsey Johnson. Let me know if you have any favourites, I'd love your opinions!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Juice Fast

Starting today I am doing a 7 day juice fast. During the fast I only drink pure, fresh fruit/vegetable juice (not from concentrate), water, and iced/hot herbal tea. I usually go with 3-4 juices per day. If anyone wants to try it, Happy Planet makes good fruit/vegetable juices, but if you have your own juicer that is even better. The fresher, the better. And then you can choose what you want to add, experiment a little, and have some fun. And the herbal tea I usually get as a treat when I'm dying is Passion tea from Starbucks. It's sweet and fruity so you won't be tempted to add any sugar or sweeteners. Basically, this fast detoxes your body and you will find that you lose a good amount of weight, your skin will be healthier and glowing, and you won't feel as deprived as you would on a water/liquid fast. In the Happy Planet juices there are 5-8 whole pieces of fruit or vegetables per serving, so this fast is safer and healthier than a lot of fasts out there. And instead of feeling exhausted and miserable, after the first 3 days (which tend to be hell) I find that I have a lot of energy. 

So I know some of you are probably thinking that 3-4 fruit juices a day can add up to a lot of calories. But honestly don't even look. Don't even think about that, as hard as it is. I've done 10 days of this fast, someone I know has done 30 days, and you will lose a significant amount of weight. It's just mentally challenging, not so much physically. The first 3 days are hard, not going to lie, but after that your body will have cleaned out all the toxins and your digestive system basically shuts down, so you shouldn't feel super hungry. You have cravings of course but your not starving because your body is getting plenty of nutrition. I recommend having at least 1 juice that includes vegetables per day and throwing in a multivitamin if you can. This is an excellent fast for people that have never fasted before or tend to fail other fasts. I'm estimating that I'll lose around 10 pounds in the 7 days. If anyone wants to join me let me know, and we can support each other!

Technically you can do this fast for any number of days, but to get the full benefits I would recommend doing it for at least 5-7 days. The first 3 days are the hardest but after that you can really go for any amount of time. Like I said, it's usually only mentally tough after that. And I would also recommend easing back into solid foods once your fast is over so that you don't shock your body. I tend to spend 2-3 days after the fast eating only fruits, vegetables, and soups. And this is also good because you won't immediately gain back a pound or 2 of the weight you lost by filling your body up with solid foods again. Also, I don't recommend working out or doing any amount of significant exercise while fasting. 

Yeah so my guy friend that I was talking about is coming in 7 days lol. So my hope is that this fast will make me look a bit better when I see him, and help me kick start my weight loss. It's hard when you first start, and you don't see a lot of progress. That's when I tend to slip. But if I get 10 pounds off, I think I will be really motivated to keep losing. Once I start crossing off those goal weights, I know I'll want to keep doing it. I'm really excited for this, and I'll try to update you guys everyday. I'll probably weigh myself everyday while I'm on the fast, and then I've decided to do Wednesday weigh-ins after that. I know I can be successful at this, I've done it before. Just have to be mentally strong, stay busy and think long term! Don't think about the food I want to eat right now, think about the bathing suit I want to look hot in 4 months! Today I'm going to try and get a bunch of homework and errands done, and I need to go buy some juices :) Hope you guys are doing great with your new year's resolutions! 

Today's inspiring pics go to Taylor Swift. I think she's super cute and definitely skinny. Enjoy :)

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

122 days left.

So I watched this amazing show on called I Used to Be Fat and you should definitely watch it if you can. On the first episode the girl loses about 90 in 111 days! I have 122 days until Hawaii so I feel like my weight loss goals are totally possible by then and if I don't meet them its due to my own laziness. I've talked my boyfriend into going to the gym with me 3 times a week because he's gained a bit of weight since we came to university, so that's going to help a lot. I'm planning on starting with an hour of cardio, probably elliptical or bike, and then working my way up to 1 hour 15 min, an hour and a half, etc. And then I'm going to try to do exercises (crunches, push-ups, leg stuff) in my room every day. AND my friend comes in 12 days so I'm thinking about doing a juice fast before he comes. I have to figure out for how long and how I'm going to handle telling my boyfriend. We eat lots of meals together so I think I'm going to have to just tell him. He's knows that I've done a 10 day juice fast before, so hopefully he's supportive. I'm thinking I'll do a week long one, what do you guys think? Anyway, here are the new year's resolutions...

1. Gym at least 3 times a week
2. Get into the 120's, approx. a 50 lb weight loss, by May 7 (Hawaii)
3. Maintain my grades 
4. Stop being lazy in general-always look my best, don't put off school stuff, go to the gym, keep my room clean, go to every class

 I think I can do this. I'm really motivated to not look like a beached whale in Hawaii. I'm tired of being a fat slob and doing everything half ass. 2011 is my year to go full out and be my best possible self. I really need to lose this weight and feel good about myself again. I want to see my ribs and hip bones again. So when I'm hungry I'm going to think about...

1. Being in a bathing suit in 122 days
2. Seeing bones again
3. Looking hot in clothes
4. Looking hotter naked
5. How much better I'll feel about myself
6. It's just food. Food should be purely for nourishment, not for entertainment or comfort. 

I'm back at school, so it will be a bit easier to avoid junk food. Also, I should be posting everyday or almost everyday now with updates. I'm thinking I might weigh myself once a week instead of everyday. I think it might be better for my motivation since I should see a steady decline in my weight and not all the little fluctuations that tend to happen daily. What do you think? Monday weigh ins sound good? And I WILL post before and after pictures once I reach my goals. I need to do this to prove it to myself and everyone else that I can. I'm a skinny bitch NOT a fat slob and its time to show everyone that. So 50 lbs in 122 days. Let's do this. 

Candice Swanepoel, isn't she hot? I've always kinda wanted to be blonde...maybe I'll go for it once I reach my goal weight.