Juice Fast: Day 5/6

CW: 164

I made it for about 5 and a half days for the juice fast. Today (day 6) I had to eat dinner with my boyfriend because he was getting really suspicious. So we went to Tim Horton's and I got a chicken sandwich and, unfortunately, a donut. But afterward we went to the gym and I did an hour of intense cardio and burned 620 calories. I weighed myself when I got back and I was happy to see 164 on the scale, the weight I was before Christmas came around. But I'm not going to cross off my goal weight 1 until I've kept my weight below 165 for a couple of days. I really need to lose this weight. I just want to see the 130's again before Hawaii so that I can actually have fun instead of dreading being in a bathing suit everyday. I keep telling myself to think about how great I'll feel, how much fun I'll have, and how fantastic I will look.

I looked up my BMI and right now I'm in the "overweight" category. That's really depressing. I won't be in the "normal" weight range until I get to 140, 24 pounds to go. I remember being underweight...when people told me how great I looked and asked me how I did it. But I'm really trying not to think about how far I have to go, and instead take every pound as a small victory. I already feel and look better, and I every pound I lose will continue that progress. I can see my collarbones a little already, and my stomach has gotten a bit flatter. I don't feel safe at this weight though. I feel like I could gain those 9 lbs back in a few days. I'll be really happy to see the 150's, then I'll feel a little more secure with my weight loss journey.

I was surprised at how well I did on the fast, I could have kept going if my boyfriend wasn't with me everyday. I definitely could have made it to 7 if not 10 days. I like fasting. It makes things simple. Controlling my eating is harder to me than not eating at all. But going to the gym works too. As long as I've burned most of what I've eaten, I'm satisfied. And I really do like working out, especially cardio. And my boyfriend is really into going to the gym now too, so we will be able to motivate each other when one of us isn't feeling up to it. I'm so glad I'm back on track because I get pretty depressed when I'm eating crap and not exercising. Junk food only makes me happy for the moment it's on my tongue, then I'm just depressed and hopeless.

Today's pics are of Whitney Port, reality TV star and up and coming clothing designer. She has the skinniest legs!