Saturday, July 30, 2011

An uneventful day.

CW: 173.2 lbs

First off I just want to thank you girls for your comments, they always brighten my day and encourage me to keep going. Yesterday and today were pretty uneventful. Went to the gym for an hour both days and stayed around 1200 calories, which seems to be working. I've lost 2.4 lbs in 2 days but the beginning is always tough. I'm having so many cravings since I'm not used to eating like this. Ice cream sundaes are calling my name...but then I just think about spending another year in size 12 jeans and I know it's not worth it. Just thinking about buying something in a size 2 again makes me so excited. I can do this, I've done it before. It's just food.

I'm not stopping until i reach 115, and when I do I'm buying a whole new wardrobe. I don't care if I can't afford it, when I accomplish this 60 lb goal I'm gonna deserve it. I just hope I can keep this up when I'm living with my boyfriend. I'm just going to tell him that I don't want any junk food in the house. Not all of us can eat whatever we want and not gain a pound. Asshole. 

I hope you all are having good days too, and I'll leave you with some pics to keep you inspired. Today is all about floral! Hope you like them :)

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Let's get skinny bitches.

CW: 175.6...Jesus fucking christ.

So I have a month until school starts and I need to get back on track. Today was a good day and I'm planning on keeping it up until I'm down 60 lbs and walking around campus in size zero jeans. So here's the skinny on how things went today.

I had an excellent day of eating considering how I've been stuffing myself all summer. Cereal for breakfast; a piece of toast and yoghurt for lunch; an apple in the afternoon; and miso soup, edamame, and 5 pieces of dynamite roll for dinner. I also worked my butt off on the elliptical and burned 575 calories in an hour. If I get into the 150's before school starts I'm having a fucking party (food-free of course). I'm moving in with my boyfriend in September and I really just want it to be amazing. I just don't want to be self-conscious of my body when he wants to cuddle at night, or tell him no when he wants to shower together in the morning. He's seen my body of course, but I just want to be happy and carefree and loving my cute little body as soon as possible so that we can have the best time ever. 

Oh, and I also made a great discovery today. If you have an iPhone you have to down load the Calorie Count app. You can record your calorie intake, water intake, exercise, daily weight and it's absolutely fantastic. I'm going to be tracking my calories there so I won't bored you girls with the details. I was just wondering if any one can recommend any good thinspo or inspiring bloggers? I need all the motivation and support I can get! Here's what turned up  today as I was scouring the internet for thinspo. Today's theme is Black and White.  Enjoy :)

Friday, July 15, 2011

Hey Girls...

 CW: 172.6

So I'm thinking about trying this again. It didn't work for me before but maybe it will work this time? I would just get discouraged when I didn't get as much support and feedback as I was hoping for. But maybe this is what I need to get back on track. I have a gym membership. I have only healthy food around. What I need is MOTIVATION...I've done this before why can't I do it now?? And I kept it off for YEARS. Well all I can do is try again and I hope that I still have a few people that will support me along the way.

I'm sure I've missed so much in your lives. For that I'm sorry. Me? You haven't missed much. Finished my first year of university and did pretty well. Still with my boyfriend of 3 years, we're moving in together in September. Still the same size. I'm officially going to stop using the word FAT...well any negative words in general. I need to be positive and not so hard on myself. Losing weight is hard. It might take a lot longer than I want it to. But as long as I'm making positive choices in my life and going in the right direction towards a better life, I'm going to try and be proud of myself. Look in the mirror and LOVE myself. Well, I'm going to try. The funny thing is that even when I was tiny and everyone was telling me how great I looked, I never felt thin. I never felt good about myself. I want to change that. Every pound I lose, I'm going to try and give myself the credit I deserve for losing it. One pound at a time.