I've been having some problems with my boyfriend. I thought I'd ask you guys if I'm being completely irrational and overreacting or if i have a right to be upset. The first thing that happened was on Saturday night. We were hanging out, he was drinking, I wasn't really and the rest of our friends went to a house party. We decided to just chill and stay in, play some drinking games. So one of them had a truth or dare component and he chose truth, and I asked him what made him start liking me. He asked me out every year since grade 7 until I said yes in grade 10 and we've been dating ever since. And he had been drinking but at the time he said he wasn't drunk. He said that he didn't know why he started liking me, it was a long time ago, he just did. After nagging him for like 5 minutes for an answer he said because he figured he had a chance at getting me. He didn't say because I was smart or fun or pretty...because he thought he had a chance with me. So I was super hurt over it and we didn't talk for a coupe days, but I forgave him because I really can't imagine my life without him.
Then the next thing that happened was I found something on his phone that shouldn't have been there. And I didn't sneak to look at his phone, just so you know, he was there and I was just playing around on his apps and stuff. I looked in his app store and he had searched for sex apps, and had one open that was like, porn. And he has lied about watching porn in the past which really hurt me, so this is a sensitive subject. He, of course, had some bullshit excuse. If he was honest about it, I might not even mind, but the fact that he lies about it means he has something to hide. I just don't know how much more I should take. I love him, I really do. But I can't just let him keep lying to me and hurting me, I look like an idiot. And he'll just keep doing it because I always go back to him. I don't know.
On a happier note, I've been look at cute bathing suits online, potentially for Hawaii. They're Victoria's Secret and Betsey Johnson. Let me know if you have any favourites, I'd love your opinions!