I'm happy about that weight. I feel better, I look better and I'm creating the life that I want for myself. I still have 48 lbs to go but it feels so good to be closer than I was yesterday. I'm anxiously waiting for a lot of things at the moment it seems. Anxiously waiting to see my boyfriend, who I miss like crazy, to see the 150's (that I also miss like crazy), to be settled into our new place...I'm not really excited for school to start but I want to get back into the routine of things. I feel like I'm in an in-between place right now. Going back and forth between here and there, constantly missing my boyfriend, too many trips to airports. I'm excited to have a home again.
Yesterday my mom was out for the entire day which is usually a recipe for disaster...a perfect opportunity to binge like crazy or not eat at all. But I am proud to say that I didn't binge or starve, and stuck to my plan exactly! I went to the gym for an hour in the afternoon, made myself a healthy dinner, and woke up a whole pound lighter. The hard work is paying off, thank god.
Unfortunately, I've been having a craving that has lasted for DAYS. When I go back home I'm going to be shopping downtown all day Friday until my boyfriend gets off work, and there is this amazing cupcake shop there. I've been craving my favorite cupcake like crazy...it's vanilla and chocolate cake with peanut butter icing and chocolate chips on top. I'm considering having it for lunch but I'm hesitant because I have no idea what the calories would be. But if I have a light breakfast, cupcake for lunch, and a light dinner I would probably be okay. I don't know if it's going to make me feel like shit after though and want to eat everything in sight, or if I'll feel satisfied. Maybe if I don't have it I'll end up binging...but then again maybe I'll binge if I do. And all of this over a cupcake. Ugh I wish I wasn't so obsessed with food.
Question of the Day: What is your favorite skinny/healthy treat?
A: At the moment mine is Lindt Sea Salt Dark Chocolate. It's 100 calories for 2 squares and it's delicious! It totally curbs my sweets cravings and since dark chocolate is supposed to be good for you, I don't feel bad about eating it.